And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you

And if I should ever go away
Well, then close your eyes and try to feel
The way we do today
And then if you can remember

Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Well, you came and opened me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you

And then for the times when we're apart
Well, then close your eyes and know
These words are comin' from my heart
And then if you can remember

Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
In good times, in bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
Oh, that's what friends are for

Havent heard this song for a long long time...Happened to hear it on the radio awhile ago...I just love this song...=)))

And Melany, it's
I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms~... LOSER!

so was Maths paper today and ytd...i dont know if i really dont know how to do the questions or is it just that i'm not confident enough...what ever it is, it's already over and i'm not gonna think about it anymore...

ytd, after paper went to JE with Huifen...met up with her cousin awhile...den planned to study but not in the mood so left early....

today, after paper went to JE for lunch with Colleen and Huifen...was plannig to stay home and slack the whole day but JianQing called me up to study...so went to meet him at Delifrance@ Holland...Boey came with his gf awhile later...all 3 of us totally no mood to study so talked cock all the way...Boey's gf left and shortly after we left for KouFu@ Commonwealth...had dinner there den sat and talk about alot of things...JianQing told us about his plans which will most likely be carried out three years later while Boey and i talked bout our dreams...Boey wants to invent a new hardware while i wanna become a top-notch hotelier...well, it's only a dream but i doubt it can ever be realised...even if it will i guess it'll be many many many years later...also talked bout how in 10 years time we'll have a gathering and how much everyone will change...and some by that time will bring their kids along...hahahaha...and other random stuffs..without realising it was already 10pm and i had to leave as i have to get up early tmr...

Chinese paper tmr...feeling kinda nervous now...I WANT MY A1 LARRRRRRRR~~~~...

alright gonna turn in now or else i'll look like a zombie tmr...hahahaha...

alright shall blog bout my weekend before i forget everything...

saturday Colleen came over in the afternoon to do accounts...helped her through some of the questions den talk cock here and there till 4 plus? boring night at home..brother sms-ed me to go for supper since his friend lent him the car..came to pick me up at 9.30pm...went Bukit Panjang first...met up with Olivia and her friends...den off to Upper Thomson for Prata and Kambing Soup...sedap...after supper Olivia drove home while brother and i dropped the rest home before heading home...daddy was being a pain in the ass...fucked up father i have...

today...stupid Shen Jian Qing sms-ed me at 7 in the MORNING! but aiya...even if he didnt msg me i think i'll still be up damn early...so mgs-ed till 7plus den went to prepare for tuition...brother sent me to tuition...after tuition bus-ed down to Peninsular to meet up with brother and Olivia...had a super duper tough time to make up my mind on what colour jeans to buy...in the end brother decided for me...den walked ard to look for his stuffs...down to Bras Barsar and PS...den brother cabbed home dropped me of the Holland...wanted to go BK but guess what...their air-con was spoilt so went to Delifrance...and Jian Qing arrived like 156472654615 years later...hahahaha...study study study...den Boey came..left for dinner at the coffeeshop...den back to Delifrance...didnt study much after dinner...brother msg-ed me to go home before war starts...so left after awhile...[ sorry BoBo and JianQing for ps-ing you all, but you guys shld noe my situation]....managed to stop war from occuring...hahahahahaha...

fathers nowadays are getting very fucked up..

sian...tmr gotta get up by 6.30am...*yawn*..there's two paper going on tmr...gonna turn in soon to recharge my batteries..=DDD

i'm officially down with a flu and a cough...damn!!!! it's damn sudden that i fell sick lar...Huifen thinks it's because i havent been having enough sleep...=(((( it's not i dont wanna sleep one lor...couldnt get to sleep last night...had to take 4 capsules of flu medicine before i fell into deep sleep...but it resulted to a terrible headache when i woke up this morning..

so anyway...had to get my ass out of bed at 9am to prepare for my tuition...see how to get enough of sleep!...tuition from 10am to 12noon...den went to prepare and headed to JE to meet up with Huifen...had porriage for lunch...den headed to the library...started doing accounts...okay lar...at the beginning i was reading i-weekly...hahahaha...left at ard 5.20pm...went prima deli to get waffles...while waiting i was looking at the board where the displayed the designs of their cakes...and they are all very pretty looking lor...but kuku Huifen set her eyes on all those cheapskate cake that are totally not suitable to be birthday cake...hahaha...and the cupcakes that prima deli's selling looks to good to be eaten....hahaha...and their kinda cheap too...

ohoh! Liying called to tell me that Luo ZhiXiang will be coming on the 9th of Nov to autogragh the concert tickets...too bad i cant go as i have visiting to do...and Baoyun wont be able to go too as she'll be in Thailand...=((( he's always coming at the wrong time larrrr....=(((

brother just came home and asked if i wanna join him for supper coz his friend lent him his car.....butttt...i cant go lar...if not daddy confirm will kao pei..but i wanna go larrr...very long nvr go out with brother to eat ready..=(( hahaha...brother says that if he comes home early tmr and i'm feeling better den he'll bring me for supper tmr...so god..pls let me be alotttt better by tmr...

i'm fucking bored now...=(((

Chemistry paper today...and i think that the paper's pretty easy...just that i made some stupid careless mistakes...had lunch with daddy before heading to school...reached school at like 12.15pm? when my paper is at 2.30pm...hahaha...went den studied a little until Melany and Roziah came...den headed to the toilet with them...and that two bananas always talks about things that makes me have question marks written on my face...grrr...

didnt walk home tgt with Colleen and Huifen today...went toilet with Melany and Roziah...nonsense talking again..told Melany bout the plans i have for my birthday and all requires alot of money!!!...i dunno if i shld just do a small celebration or wad...coz i was thinking like it's only a 17th birthday...but i wanna make it bigger coz i dont know when i'll get to see everyone again...some i'm sure that i'll still keep in contact with but some i noe i wont even be hearing from them for like FOREVER!..argh! i have to get everything sorted out before i leave!

and i think i'm gonna get a flu and cough soon...and stupid daddy bout the wrong medicine!...
Geog paper tmr...doubt i'm gonna study today...my head feels very heavy..guess i'll just have to turn in early tonight and get up early tmr to study..=(((

so yesterday went to the library with kuku+100000birds...studied only a little coz most of the time spent talking...and kuku+100000birds sure dont know what is surprise...i was like telling her that i needa get a bag for my trip and she said "i buy for you lar..as your birthday present" and i was like "NO! i want surprise lar...where got friends say what they gonna get you for birthday de.." hahahaha...

and today went downstairs to study alone...thought that with no one's company i will concentrate more but in the end i was talking to Melissa on the phone...hahaha...but at least i managed to do 2 past year papers...oh well, since the paper tmr is only at 2.30pm so can study tonight and tmr morning...hahaha...

oh yeah! Os' just tmr...which means it is also gonna end real soon...which also means my trip is also coming soon...cant wait! though i wont be able to attend prom and the party =(((...oh wells, at least i will be able to shop like mad!!! ohoh! and not forgetting it's just 1 more month to my birthday!! and i still dont have any plans yet... =(((

so actually wanted to stay home and nua the whole day..but in the afternoon Mr Shen ask me go study...so met him up at ard 4plus at Clementi's Mac...the weather was terrible to study at my place downstairs...totally a wrong day to study coz both of us were damn tired...did a little of Maths den talked all the way...den head to hawker for dinner...chic chic rice! =)) i've always loved their chic rice...ever since Wendy used to bring me there to eat...hahaha...den walked back to West Coast Court..just nice reach the bus stop his bus came so home i went...

my internet is pissing me off big time...grrrr...so couldnt get to use the com till bro came back...and now i noe the fault doesnt lie on me!...hahaha...i guess no one understands what i'm talking about..ahhhhh...lazy to explain...

tmr's another session with kuku+100000000birds...i guess no one understands what i'm saying again...hahahaha...secret secret....hahahaha...lame shit...

oh oh! did i mention i saw Dickson and his wife just now? yeah did...this time round his wife is so much more friendly...talked cock awhile den i left coz they were going to have dinner with his family..

i dont like to talk to kuku+1000000000birds online...coz she takes forever to reply...

bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored...

green curry
some fish...damn nice lar...
and tomyum...=)))

forced myself out of bed at 7.45am...got ready and headed for tuition...was late due to the heavy down pour...keep wanting to fall asleep during tuition...damn tired siol...but slept well last night...like finally!...hahaha...headed home after tuition...saw three ah guas on the bus lar...-_-"...reached home slacked ard...den prepare for my other tuition...after tuition met up with JianQing and Boey...ate at the coffeeshop near my place den went NTUC...coz daddy gave me $20 worth of voucher to spend...bought quite alot of things...got Ferrero Rocher, a 2 litre Coke, Strawberry Milk, Skittles, Gummy Bears and Boey got some cuttlefish thingy...went my hse downstairs to study..i dunno y but i think my teaching like suddenly abit very sucks...i have a feeling JianQing totally dont understand a single shit lar...so had to make him memorise...got Boey to do a Sole Trader question...studied for like 1 hr plus only and stop ready...actually only wanted to rest but in the end totally didnt get back to study at all...half way went to look for Pin Xian brought him to the lion dance thingy coz he lost his way...bodoh...watch alittle of lion dance, saw some familiar faces...but didnt say hi and headed back...talk cock alittle while den went up my place...wanted to use com but something wrong with the internet...i think both of them do until pek chek arh...so ended up watching tv...den bro came back dunno wad he did and the internet was working ready...i seriously think my internet dont like me...den watched tv, talk cock...i think daddy was talking to them when i went to the toilet...wonder what they were talking about...den they left at ard 10pm...acc them down but lazy to acc them to the bus stop as it was very far...hahaha...went back home daddy started asking me things bout the both of them....he seems to like them alot...hahahaha...and daddy die die also dont believe that JianQing's from China...-_-"...tmr's gonna be a very slack day...no plans yet....but gonna go pray in the afternoon...

oh! JianQing ask me to write here that my dad likes him coz he's handsome...and that he's clever coz he can memories things very fast...

and JianQing , u better rmb everything...if the next time i test you and you dont know...you're dead!...

couldnt get much sleep last night too! so spent the night thinking bout things...and here's everything that i wanna say...

u asked me if i was angry...well at first i was very angry but den the anger turned into disappointment..u shouldnt apologise to me at all but u should apologise to yourself...coz if i dun teach you i dont lose out at all but you're the one who's losing out...if you're serious you wouldnt bother about others at all...i'm not asking you to be selfish or wad..but i ask you are your exams more important or waiting for a friend is more important? if u had the basics knowledge about accounts i wouldnt be pissed at all..but the prob is you know nuts about accounts...i can just leave you and let you fail for all i care but i didnt...why? because as your friend i wanna see you do well for your Os...and the only thing i can help you is to teach you accounts...and i even promised to help you achieve a C6...that's because i saw how hard working you've been recently and i'm willing to give it a try...if you were really serious you would have gone home to prepare and head down to my place straight...but you didnt...you seriously think accounts can be learnt within a day? hey, we dont have much time you know? i even took the trouble to read through the textbook to think of what to teach you and how i'm gonna explain them to you so that you can understand better...but when i heard you're still playing soccer in school you know how disappointed i was...i guess you will never understand how i felt...i feel like a idiot wanting to put in effort to teach you...but it seem that you arent interested at all...so why should i waste my time, energy and effort on you?...just when will you learn how to be more responsible and set your priorities right?...last but not least i apologise for not picking up your calls and reply your msges as i know i'll definitely be very attitude and i dont want to be like that..

so anyway, woke up looking like a zombie again...was late so asked them to go ahead to eat first without me...wasnt in the mood to eat...tried really hard to concentrate on studying but couldnt...was really tired...but talk-cocking session woke me up alot...all of us didnt study much today...and i have a feeling it's my fault...i'm sorry if it's really because of me...left at ard 1pm...went to meet up with Melany...had Thai food for lunch...sedap...i like...=)..den acc her for the passport thingy...and that Mr Gopal actually thought we were sisters...like this is not the first time anyway...the Mr Gopal was practically talking nonsense....after that stupid Mel had the sudden urge to cut her hair so went to FarEast...i like her hair now..it's something like the one i wanna get but i cant bare to cut my hair away...went outside ThisFashion to slack...she treated me Vodka..thanks babe!...sat there talking bout nonsense things we've done in the past...kinda miss those days...den went to Taka as she wanna get food for her grandma...after which walked to Cine's bus stop and headed home...dad's pissed with me coz i was mummbling when i was talking to him...i'm real tired okay...but i had to get my butt infront of the computer to type all these stuffs down...it feels so much better after typing out everything i wanna say...and sorry Liying, am really tired to talk now...meet you up soon..=)) alright, my battery's dying soon shall get some shut eyes now...oh god, please let me get some sleep! photos shall be up some other day...=))

fucking pissed off..whatever..shall not be bothered with ppl whom arent seriously interested in learning..

so anyway, was Science Prac today..Physics was all right but if i'm not wrong, i drew my graph wrongly...whatever...it's over and i dont wanna think about it anymore..Chem can just go eat shit and die...headed home straight after that to prepare for the session in the afternoon...went downstairs myself first to prepare everything...but in the end it was just a waste of my time...why did i even bother, i ask myself...whatever lar...Colleen came by at ard 3.50pm..and started teaching her accounts...glad that she understood and was able to do the questions i asked her to...cause those topics that she asked for help werent my forte...shall ask tutor Helen to go through with me the rest so that i can teach her next week...tmr's another session with Huifen and Colleen..hopefully will be able to get enough of sleep...have been having insomnia the past few nights and i'm really very very tired..but i just fucking hell cant get to sleep no matter how hard i try..grrrrr...

i think if i continue with this post i'll be talking with no sense so yeah..whatever..bye..

headed town with Liying ytd...went Centrepoint to get my top den was to S-11 for lunch...


my ultra yummy Grilled Dory Fish Pasta =)))

so the passed few days was also spent mugging...went Tiong to meet up with Liying ytd...most of the time was spent talking and eating...think i only did 2 Maths questions? cant rmb den we started drawing on my fullscap..-_-" i think those ppl working at Tiong are alittle eccentric...lazy to talk about what happened...

met up with Huifen today...saw lots of ppl crowding outside Watsons, went to foodcourt to look for her...and that goondu tell me she thinks it's Chen Weilian filming there...turns out to be Fiona Xie and Jiang Cheng Xi...okay...at first i thought Fiona Xie is Kim Ng...hahaha...cant really see clearly...hhahaha...spent like 2 hrs doing Maths...den the last hour was like spent talking...tokk 52 home as she wanted to go Ngee Ann to look for Crystal...tmr's town with Yang LiLi...=)))))

mugging sessions again...monday was with Colleen and Huifen...didnt really study long...left at ard 1pm? dunno...cant really rmb...after which Huifen and i went to IMM...walked ard alittle got some stuffs den headed home...
ytd didnt study at all! went to rebond my hair...quite sastisfied just that my hair is fucking fucking flat now...and the smell of the rebonding cream is still there...making me a little feel like vomiting..
today met up with Huifen to study again...wanted to have breakfast at Mac but because Mac was packed plus saw a group of people i dont really like, so went foodcourt instead...that kuku...managed to eat her porriage only happy like dunno wad fuck...at first both of us didnt have the mood to study at all...den..haha...the wise me told her that if she could complete a question independently without my help or the answer booklet, friday i'll buy her fav biscuit for her...and yeah, she managed to complete the question herself...*claps*..did more questions till 1plus den left ready...couldnt tahan the coldness and all those noise...

grrrrrr....next thursday is science prac and i still cant fucking rmb a single shit for the chem one...damn!

因为我会想起你
我害怕面对自己
我的意志
总被寂寞吞食
因为你总会提醒
过去总不会过去
有种真爱不是我的

just realised that i havent been counting down for O's for quite a long time...maybe it's better this way...just now when Melissa called to ask me the dates for our paper den realised that it's coming too soon...dang! y do we have to go through all these stupid examinations which may or may not help us in what ever we do in future? if only there's a place where students didnt have to take exams...i'll definitely be the first to migrate there...hahaha...but den there's no such place of course...so like i've finished reading the book i've borrowed from the library last night...brother lent me one of his books which till now i still dun understand a single shit the story's about...so anyway since i'm going to the library tomorrow most likely gonna borrow another book...am supposed to go see brother play rugby today but due to the rain stayed home instead...even though it's raining outside but the weather's still damn hot can...totally cant get to sleep last night due to the heat...well, not until i tied my hair into a bun and finally felt cooler...so yeah, slept with my hair being tied up...hahaha...argh! i hate the life of a O level student...totally no life...all day long mug and mug...sian...1 more month and hello FREEDOM!...

WEDNESDAY
met up with Colleen and Huifen...breakfast at the toast shop...the coffee there is damn good...the toasts too..=))) den went to JE's library...i left at ard 11.45am...coz mummy was working half day and wanted to meet up with me...so bus-ed down to Tanglin Mall to look for her...her friend was there too...wasnt really interested in their conversation so most of the time was reading my book....den went up to look for yiyi...sat at her shop and talked away den went shopping...Tanglin Mall is a real boring place to shop but a great place to slack...hahahaha...den bus-ed down to CentrePoint...mum's friend went to get some stuffs den we left....accompanied her to wait for cab den mummy and i went to PS...had waffles den headed home...

THURSDAY
i'd rather not talk about it...fucking pissed off....i just HATE! last minute things...ESPECIALLY last minute cancellation of things...was pissed to the MAX! though i didnt sound that pissed on the phone...it just totally wasted so much of my time lar...so was stuck at home with nothing to do...and i totally cant study when i'm at home so instead spent the rest of the 'LOVELY' afternoon reading the book i borrowed for the library on Tuesday...

FRIDAY
met up with Liying...she was late again...so was reading while waiting for her...the idiot...creep up behind me a gave me a shock...idiot...and coincidentally we wore the same t-shirt...damn gay can...but luckily it was class t-shirt that we wore so not that bad...hahaha....had Yong Tau Foo at the foodcourt...quite surprised that there were food there so early in the morning...den went to JE"s library...i'm like going there like everyday lar...but it's a good place to study...=))) once again the Bayi pissed me off....argh!...left at ard 3plus pm...actually we wanted to stay long but 2 JC students came to sit with us and the feeling was damn weird so we left....

TODAY
woke damn early...showered, waited for dad den went to pray...sat outside talk to Master and the other ppl there...didnt understadn a single shit they were talking about...den left for breakfast...and here i am now..tuition's at 1pm....sian...i wanna sleep...

and guess wad...I NO LONGER HAVE CABLE TV!!!! THAT MEANS NO MORE MTV(both channel 20 and 51), NO MORE WHO WANTS TO BE A SUPERHERO, NO MORE QI TIAN DA SHENG, NO MORE NV REN WO ZUI DA, NO MORE KANG XI LAI LE, NO MORE DA XUE SHENG LE MEI... ARGH! WEEKENDS ARE GONNA BE SO BORING!!!!

life's kinda boring now, especially during this period...spent the weekends with tuitions...went to school ytd to get back the rest of the papers and my report book...aggregate was better den i expected...but not good enough...gotta work extra hard from now on...headed to to Queensways after school as Huifen wanted to get the lens and studs...home after that...

and as for today, was supposed to meet up with Huifen at 9.30am but i was late...so in the end met up at 10...had breakfast at Mac's den headed off to the library...there were no available seats so had to seat on the floor...serious studying for bout 2hrs plus den went to looks for some books...hahaha...after having found one my mind wasnt on my books anymore...hahaha...but anyway forced myself to atudy a lil more...den went to the cafe downstair for brownies! she had oreo cheese cake...my brownies wast that bad but her oreo cheese cake have no taste of the oreo...hahaha...it was freezing in there so after finished eating went out for awhile...den went back in to continue studying...oh! that idiot couldnt borrow the book with her card as she owes them like $17? so had to borrow it using my card...whoo...cant wait to finish it up and borrow the other ones...hahahaha...so after finished reading the chapters i planned to cover today i procceeded to read the book which i borrowed...it's a mystery story written by Wendy Corsi Staub called, "All The Way Home" ...though i havent finished reading it but i think it's gonna be a really good book...hahaha...so meeting up again tmr and hopefully we can get a seat tmr cause it's kinda uncomfortable having to seat on the floor...=)))