Fucked up, fucked up so god damn fucked up.

You guys wants things done, okay I do. But ever thought of the fucking time frame you all give anot. It's like the fucking morning you all send the emails and expect me to do it and send back that afternoon. Hey, I've got my own life and it's the fucking holidays. It's always fucking last minute that you all expect to get things done and not forgetting that I'm only a newbie who know nuts about anything. I can't fucking possibily just sit in front of my fucking laptop waiting for your fucking last minute emails go get things done. I've fucking had enough. Even for meetings it's also fucking last minute most of the time. Maybe I shoould just leave. Argh!!!!! Fuck shit, fuck shit, fuck shit.


Feel so much better after ranting.


Alrighty, so ytd was back to NTSS as it was the teachers' day celebration. Met up with Mel and Jak first. After visiting was to Pasir Panjang for some prata and down to Holland to chill after that. Home at ard 6pm and wash up and was to Sunset Way for dinner. Was supposed to go or Rivervalley but due to my Dad's menopause changed of plans. Home after that.

And as for today. Met up with Brother and Jane for lunch at T3 and some other random places and to Mum's workplace area for ice cream while waiting for mum to knock off. Down to Vivo after which. Shopped ard and Mum got me a new skirt. Wooohooo! More clothes for school. Dinner at Carnivore (some brazilian restaurant). Food was fab. And I back at home. So friggin tired and having headache. Gonna turn in soon.

Will be out the next few days. Only a few days of holidays left and I shall make sure I enjoy them as I've missed out 1 week of fun. =)

Fabulous day it was. <3

1. Who's the one I most wanted to MEET?
-My grandfathers? Never seen them before.

2. Who do you hate ?
-Your grandmama. No la. Just you. Okay. Fine. No one.

3. What happen at 10am today ?
-Was still sleeping like a pig.

4. When is your last cry?
-Today while watching 恶作剧2吻. Sad okay

5.What's your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter ?
-Jam. That’s the only time I eat peanut butter. Other times don’t fucking bring peanut butter near me.

6. What do you want in your life right now ?
-MONEY!

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains , or put up with your hood ?
-Now that I have my little yellow umbrella, I do bring umbrella when it rains.

8. What's your favourite things to have on your bed ?
-My pillow and bolster la.

9. What bottom are you wearing right now ?
-FBT

10. What's your nicest text in your inbox says ?
-Confidential

11. Do you wish to make a relationship complicated ?
-Sounds fun. Why not? Wahahahaha

12. Are you wearing anything that you borrowed from someone?
-No la.

13. What was the last movie you caught ?
-12 Lotus

14. What are you proud of ?
-That....I cant think of anything that I’m proud of. How sad.

15. What does your oldest text msges say ?
-Lazy to check. So I don’t fucking know.

16. What is the last song you sang it out loud ?
-Yellow by Coldplay. Nice okay.

17. Do you have any nickname?
-I have plenty.

18. What does you last recieved msg says ?
-Call me.

19. What time do you go to school yesterday ?
-HOLIDAY!

20. Are you currently happy ?
-Am I supposed to be happy?

21. Who gives you the best advice ?
-Me, myself and I. Kidding. No it’s real. Joke.

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can ?
-Hell no. It’s disgusting.

23. Who do you last talk on the phone with ?
-My grandfather. If I even have one. Ha.

24. Is anything bugging you right now ?
-Maybe. Perhaps.

25. What/Who was the last thing/person that makes you laugh ?
-Monkey business.

26. Do you wear toes socks ?
-No.

27. What was the last person you missed called from ?
-I don’t know. Never call back.

28. Had you ever had your heart broken ?
-Erm. Who hasn’t?

29. What annoys you most in a person ?
-Bimbotic behaviours. Totally disgusting when one tries to act dumb. And I mean act really dumb when they are not.

30. Do you hab a crush on anyone now ?
-N-O.

31. Have you ever done cocaine ?
-No, Do I even look like a drug addict?

32. Whats the colour of your room ?
-It’s called Velvet Dream. But it’s lavender purple.

33. Would you kill someone for a billion $ ?
-If he’s not good looking I might consider. Haha.

34. Do you believed in saying of "talk in cheap" ?
-Kinda.

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed ?
-Me and only me.

36. Who was the last person to hug you ?
-Ijah. Sad right.

37. What do you wan to say to the person you have a crush on ?
-You’re so cute. Wait. I don’t even have a crush. Dumb.

38. Do you have a life ?
-I’m still alive. So yes obviously I have a life.

39. Have you ever think someone died , when they didnt ?
-No.

40. What's the reason behind your profile song ?
-Nice what. Emo.

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream ?
-I remembered I had a very weird dream. But I cant remember what was it about and who was involved.

42. Last time you smiled ?
-A few moments ago.

43. Have you changed this year ?
-Not really. I don’t know la.

44. What are you listening to now?
-Trick me by Kelis

45. Are you talking to someone when doing this ?
-No.

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or close ?
-Who walks with their eyes closed?

47. Is there a quote you live by ?
-Love all, Trust a few, Do wrong to none.

48. Do you want someone you don't have ?
-My grandfathers lor.

49. Have you ever played an instrument ?
-I remembered learning the Organ when I was much younger. And Primary School the recorder during music lessons and The Big Drums in Secondary School.

50. What was the worse idea you thought in this week ?
-Nothing.

51. What are you doing last night at 11pm ?
-Watching 恶作剧2吻

52. Are you happy with your love life now ?
- ...

53. What song describe your love life ?
-...

54. Do that person knew that you like him?
-...

55. Who always make you laugh ?
-My Xie Ji Ji ^^

56. Do you speak other language ?
-Only 2. Dont expect more.

57. Are you blond ?
-No. And thank god I’m not.

58. What's your middle name ?
-Monkey?

59. what are you doing tomorrow ?
-Continue rotting at home.

60. what do you think you are ?
-Someone that no one else can be. Lol.

61. Who do you choose to die with ?
-Wah can choose one ah. Okay. Then I want Xie Zhi Jie, Felicia Ang Ying Xin, Tan Wan Ru Iris and Tham Li Sze to die with me. Got company mah. Then can have steamboat also. Cool uh.

62. where have you been today ?
-At home and down to coffeeshop to get dinner.

63. What game do you like to play often ?
-I don’t game.

64. who are you missing right now ?
-It’ll be 10 pages long. So I’ll skip this.

65. what are you doing now ?
-Cant tell what I’m doing meh?

66. Which primary school are you from ?
-Pei Tong Primary.

67. If you are to choose your friends and your love , who will you be with ?
-Friends la.

68. Name three colours you like.
-Black, Ash, Neon.

69. What emotion you like to show to people ?
-What ever emotions I’m feeling that is plastered on my face.

70. What is life to you ?
-Ups and Downs. Bumpy roads that we have to cross that is supposed to lead us to what we call happiness but always turns out otherwise. In short. LIFE IS SHIT!

71. If you have something troubling you now , what will you do ?
-Let it continue to trouble me till I have the mood to get it settled.

72. Who do u last chat wif msn today ?
-Xie Ji Ji.

73. Who do you admire the most ?
-The person who created this shit to cure my boredom.

74. Which month are you born in ?
-November.

75. How you are feeling right now ?
-Feel like peeing.

76. What is the time now ?
-00 01.

77. Where are you now ?
-On my bed.

78. What colour do you like to dye your hair ?
-Brown mixed with ash.

79. Why are you doing this ?
-Coz I am BORED.

80. What do you do when you're moody ?
-Corrinne May Therapy.

81. At what age do you wish to get married ?
-25 - 27

82. Who is more important to you ?
-Whoever who is supposed to be important.

83. Do you have enough confidence ?
-Not at all.

84. Who is the person you trust most ?
-I don’t know. It’s hard to trust someone nowadays.

85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain ?
-I started believing when ZJ told me he saw one.

86. If you have a dream come true , what do you want ?
-Travel around the world.

87. What's your goal for this year?
-Get over and done with Year 1.

88. Do you believe in eternity love ?
-No. Not at all. Nothing is forever.

89. What do you love ?
-Anything that makes me happy.

90. Do you think its global warming right now ?
-Yeah.

91. What feeling you hate most ?
-Being lost, not knowing of what is happening next and what you are supposed to do.

92. You treasure every single friendship of yours ?
-If they deserve to be treasured. But I do treasure most of my friendships coz they definitely deserve it.

93. Do you give up 2nd chance easily ?
-Depends on the situation.

94. Who are you thinking of right now?
-My grandfathers. =(

95. What do think is most important in your life?
-Money.

96. What will you bring when you fight ?
-My courage and police. Joke. Bring ZJ can ready. Monkey style flying kicks combine together spells P-O-W-E-R. Plus he was a police before. So after the flying kicks can catch all the other parties. Wahahahaha.

97. What is the thing you regret ?
-For me to know for you to find out.

98. What would you feel when no ones care for you ?
-Go and die can ready. Anyway no one cares what. So dead or alive also the same.

99. What if your stead two-timed you ?
-Kick his balls and do and die. (Inside Joke.)

100. What do you want now ?
-Money money and more money.




Boredom killed. Now. I want to sleep. Night all.

XIE ZHI JIE. DO THIS SHIT HOR. I DON'T CARE. MUST DO. =DDDD

Hi lovely birdies.

I finally got to eat my Durians. Wahahaha. But they dont come easy though. I've to get my wardrobe cleaned first. Reason being. At home not enough hangers and dad dont wanna buy new ones anymore.

So I had to clear all my unwanted clothes and it's a mountain full la. One wardrobe down, another one to go. I dread cleaning the other one. Coz no matter how I pack it, it still looks awfully messy. Shall do it tomorrow instead. Haha.

My room feels so clean now coz I swept it too. Well there were too must dust and hair clot together that make my room feel like a sty and I just realised my room very dusty lor. Shall do something bout it soon.

How good if I have a vaccum cleaner that will suck all the dust in with just one click and only the dust will get sucked in, other things will just remain at where it's supposed to be. Cool uh.

Oh well, I've been a busy bee the past few days. Busy doing nothing. Busy looking for something to do.

Stayed home the whole week as I've got no money to head out and splurge on. Totally nothing.
=(((

Money's coming in only next month. Poor thing right. I cant believe my holidays are just wasted like that. =((( Thanks to me for not saving when I needed too and for not spending wisely.

A moment of happiness leads to long term sufferings. Okay. Things arent that bad. Just a little exaggerating. Lol.

The Orlampa (Olympics) is already depriving me from television programmes so why can't Channel 8 broadcast something watchable?

At this point of time I wished I went out today instead of staying home or that I still have Cable Television. =((((

And as for today, was the camp for In Vogue. Sadly, it had to be cancelled as including the student leaders we only had a total of 14 people? Fucking saddening. But we had our own entertainment and for the first time Zhi Jie and I turned violent towards each other and started our monkey fight with kicks flying here and there and our hands tied together.

1. The person who tagged you is:
No tag. Xie Ji Ji wants me to do it.

2. Your relationship with him/her is:
BFF!

3. Your five impressions of him/her:
"Eh, he looks like Sun Wu Kong", One of the chao si rens whom I dont really like back then.

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you:
Errrr. Being late for an hour plus on our Mustafa trip.

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you:
"I'm really glad you are my BFF" (So sweet right. Act only sweet only.)

6.If he/she becomes your lover, you will:
I will kill myself.

7. If he/she becomes your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be:
It will never ever happen la.

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will:
Be god damn happy. No la. I probably cry till a river forms.

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
We are tired of one anothers nonsense? IDK la.

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him:
Get him a girlfriend so that he will no longer be fungus boy. Hahahaha.


11. Your overall impression of him/her is:
Emo mama.

12. How do you think people around you feel about you:
Crazy?

13. The characters you love of yourself are:
Lemme see.......I can't think of any.

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are:
Bad tempered.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is:
No one. I just want to be myself.

16. For people that care, and like you, say something to them:
Love me for who I am and don't try to change me. Loves to all those who have always been there. I know who's true and who's not. And trust me that I will there when you need me too. But money issues don't find me. Not working = Poor student. Hahahaha.

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you:

1. Xie Zhi Jie
2. Felicia Ang Ying Xin
3. Tan Wan Ru Iris
4. Tham Li Sze
5. Darice Teo Yen Ping
6. Melany Lim Ching Mei
7. Roziah Bte Rasidi
8. Joycelyn Leow Hong Gui
9. Adeline Sun Wei Wei
10. Colleen Teng Yun Ru

18.Who is no.6[Melany] having relationship with?
Zul.

19. Is no.9[Adeline] a male or female?
Female.

20. If no.7 [Roziah] and 10 [Colleen] are together, will it be a good thing?
Hahahahahaha. Maybe. Hahahahaha.

21. What is no.2 [Felicia] studying about?
Intergrated Events Management.

23. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3 [Iris]?
Last night.

24. What kind of music band does no.8 [Joycelyn] like?
Chinese songs?

25. Does no.1 [Zhi Jie] have any siblings?
1 elder brother.

26. Will you woo no.3 [Iris]?
Yes man. If we were lesbos. Hahahaha.

27. How about no.7 [Roziah]?
HELL NO!

28. Is no.4 [Li Sze] single?
Nope.

29. What is the surname of no.5 [Darice]?
TEO.

30. What 's the hobby of no.10 [Colleen] ?
Maple? Audition?

31. Does no.5 [Darice] and 9 [Adeline] get along well?
They don't even know one another.

32. Where is no.2 [Felicia] studying at?
RP.

33. Talk something casually about no.1[Zhi Jie].
Ultra emo monkey aka fungus boy and sadly, my BFF. Hahahaha.

34. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8 [Joycelyn]?
Errr. Nope. Me is not lesbo.

35. Where does no.9 [Adeline] live at?
Clementi. Near the police station.

36. What colour does no.4[Li Sze] like?
RED.

37. Are no.5 [Darice] and 1 [Zhi Jie] best friends?
YUP!!! BFFs too. ^^

38. Does no.1 [Zhi Jie] have any pets?
Dogsssssss.

39. Is no.7[Roziah] the sexiest person in the world?
Claims to be but certainly not.

40. What is no. 10 [Colleen] doing now? Now as in now?
How the hell would I know? I'm no stalker okay.




Finally done. Abit not long can. Hahahaha.

Shivv =D And I Know I Will says:
friend = come and go

Shivv =D And I Know I Will says:
bff = machiam soul mate, always there when you need them

Shivv =D And I Know I Will says:
touched right~~~

ZhiJie: 22 Year Old Monkey Boy + Tuck You Walking Under My Shadow says:
bff = someone that irritates you, kills you in some instance, there for you when you DONT need them




Thanks ah Xie Ji Ji. Next time you need me to be there I'll make sure I'm no where to be found. *inserts annoyed face*

Yet another self-proclaimed off day. Got up at 9 in the morning and started preparing. Met Felicia on the train. Alighted at Admiralty as Tham Li Sze was late. She got lost in her own estate. Joke. No la. Just lost in the jungle. Another joke. Okay, no funny. Dont laugh okay?

Far East first. lunched at Cahaya. Same ol' shit. Walked ard got another Kimono top. I think I'll be like getting one everytime I step into Far East.

Okay, I'm gonna skip what we did or where we went after that. Too long. Lazy. So at ard 3plus Li Sze left while Felicia and I went to Toastbox for some drinks. Left soon after and headed back to school while she went to look for her friend.

Meeting was supposed to be from 4.30pm to 5.30pm but guess what. We ended close to 7pm. I was starving okay. Plus I totally catch no balls which resulted in me not taking any notes for the minutes. Nice one.

Friday, Today

School ended at 12noon for us. Phototaking. Last day of school. Well, for me. As I wont be going

Troublemaker = ME

Thank you.

Just had a convo with Taufiq and everything seems so confusing now. Lots of question marks in my head now. Well, everything will have to wait till Friday I guess.

I'm sorry for making assumptions on anyone who had spammed but those were the names I thought of upon seeing the names of the spammers. Well, the truth will be out soon.


Today = Self proclaimed holiday.


Dad is grumbling now. Coz Jane have been in Bro's room for an hour now. =.=
When he came into my room I thought " Ho seh liao. Confirm I do something wrong again" but nono, this time not me. Hahahaha.


Movie date with the two lovely kukus later. =P

Close up of the soup. This picture makes me feel like puking now. Wagagaga.




Science today = Math = Boring.
But I survived it. =D

Our pathetic Chocolate Fondue. Oh there were marshmallows but all attacked it when it came. Well, it was disappointing. Kinda felt cheated.

However, their Potato Wedges were ultra yummy. Better than those sold in school. ^^

The beauty.

And when was the last time a neoprint was taken? Ages. Li Sze had this crazy idea of taking one. So we headed to Bugis to get on taken. If only Iris dear was there. Everything would be perfect. Totally enjoyed my Friday evening with the loves. <333






All I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me

Labels: For I will be even stronger the next time you see me.

If you fucking have the guts, tag with your real name. But then again I've kind of figured who these people are. Sorrowful losers. Yeah yeah. Maybe considering complaining to the mentor bout this too? Not like it've never happened before. Hahaha. Trying to insult to bring me down? Sorry people but things just ain't going well.

Oh well, firstly, I've ever mentioned before that I look like a guy. So yeah. It doesnt work at all. And yes, I've mention in my post before that I look like a ghost, so that's isn't working too. And yes, I do have flat ass. So? Oh yes, and sorry but I cant fuck myself. Maybe you can. Since you made such a comment perhaps you've tried it before?

Anyway, thank all of you for brightening my day by showing me how sorrowful you all can be. Perhaps try using different IPs?





















I broked down upon the last text msg. Zhi Jie, I thank you for your efforts but I'm really not doing well. But as usual, I'll be fine soon. No worries.