This space is probably dead by now and I suppose no one bothers coming to this space anymore.



Well, it'll just serve its purpose of penning down my thoughts and rants.



The holidays are here but then again, when have I ever had my well deserved holidays? Oh well, the only thing that's making me smile now are my grades (and Jamie Campbell Bower :] ). Though my grades aren't really fantastic, but at least I did better than what I have expected.

Christmas' coming and I seriously don't see why should there be a commotion about it? I mean like if there's winter and snow in Singapore, hell yeah would I be excited. Don't get me wrong, am not a Christmas hater but let's face it, Singapore is Singapore. The same old boring place be it of any festive period.

And I certainly do not look forward to what 2010 is gonna bring me. According to my speculations, it'll be filled with FYPs, UTs and not forgetting the motherfucking PD. At least it's only one more year before I leave that shit place filled with sluts, whores and people who you won't wanna be friends with.

Coming to the topic of friends, when I was in primary school, I understood that we are still young and childish and hence no one is to be blamed for anything unhappiness as we're all young and innocent and stupid. When I was in secondary school I thought things would be better. Well, it did to certain extend. So when I entered the poly I thought everyone were adults and were able to tell what's right and wrong but I guess I was wrong?

I no longer feel the need to be attached to any friends coz it's just not worth it. It's not worth my efforts and time at all. I don't see a need of risking myself being used and dumped aside when that so called friend do not need you companion. Let's face it, when she's attached, she'd stick with her bf and only look for her friends when her bf isn't around. When they broke up, she said she needed her friends to have faith in her and she needed support from her friends to help her move on. But what's happening? I've always believed that if there is a will there will be a way to solve anything. But I guess from the start the will was never there. And what about needing her friends? Well, she managed to get into another group of friends and dumped those who have always been there for her. Oh and don't come telling people it's because you weren't invited to go for break etc. Since when was there even an invitation? It has always been a norm.

Seriously, I see everything as a child's play. And it's to a point whereby I don't even wanna bother about anything anymore. Like I've said before. I'm done. But just when I've decided to wash my hands off everything, I'll hear of accusations on us that you've made. I've thought of confronting and trash everything out with you. But honestly, is there even a point anymore? If you'd really get anything, you'd have gotten it months ago.

I swear this would be the last time. And now, seriously, I'm done. I'm so so done with you. To me, I'd rather see it as I've never had you as a friend but rather you're just a classmate all along.

Oh, and I don't plan to make things better as I'm tired of being initiative. :)