I'm getting tired of this chase.

The chase to search for something meaningful in my life. The chase to look for something that I want to achieve. Lastly, the chase for that someone to make me whole again.

For I no longer know what I'm looking for. Be it regarding the present, the future or life as a whole.

Maybe, just maybe, I should take a step back, take a good look of my surroundings, the people around, breathing in the fresh air and appreciating what I have.

Maybe, just maybe, I should worry less and let life lead it's way. I'm just an actor of my own life anyway. The story's been already written since the day I was born.

And maybe, just maybe, I'll degrade myself lesser and try to be happier.

Unknowingly I've lead 20 years of this life that my parents have given me.

If I had the choice, really, I wouldn't choose to change anything.

I'm thankful for who I am and for the lovely brother and friends that I have with me at this date.

Of 365 days, this is probably the only day that I should really feel happy about. But I know deep down I still do feel empty. It's like there's something missing but I can't quite figure out what it is but I know I'll find out soon enough.

Happy Birthday Shivvani J.