my aunt just called to ask why i blogged about those nasty stuffs bout my dad..
hello? how was i suppose to tell her what happened when he was just beside me..
i know it's not right to say those stuffs but have anyone ever wondered what made me say nasty stuffs about my own father? does anyone know what kind of nasty remarks he makes about almost everyone? he said nasty stuffs bout my bro, my mum, his very own siblings and my mum's siblings to me like almost everyday.
does anyone know how i feel when he said these kind of things? he even made me lie to my aunt that i havent been keeping in contact with my mum. what is he afraid of? why cant i even let my aunts know how my mother is doing? he always think that others are the ones who are the ones doing him wrong. it's like hellooo it take two hands to clap. alright let's say he was right of what he had said about my mum but havent he thought that he was also in the wrong? I WAS THERE, INFRONT OF HIM, WHEN HE TOLD MY MUM TO GO FIND THE HIGHEST BUILDING AND JUMP DOWN. havent he realised how hurtful those words are. i guess it was those words that made my mother decide to leave to him. so was it entirely my mother's fault? just why do he always think that only he is right.
i know by typing out everything here is going to bring me more trouble but i dont care anymore. no one can ever imagine what kind of stress i've been living in for the past few years. i've never said it out to anyone coz i dont know how to start. he can even make unpleasant remarks of his own brothers and sisters. he's always putting word's into others' ppl mouths which is one thing i cant tolerate. if that's is what he thinks of me why cant he just tell me straight? why must he use other ppl's name and say that this person said this about me. does anyone know how i felt everytime he indirectly say unkind words to me? everytime he said nasty things about anyone to me i've always remained silent. what else can i do?
i started breaking the silence ever since i started this blog as this is the only place where i can express my thought and vent my anger. so what, now i cant even have the freedom to voice out what i want?
he's not someone whom all of you think he his. he's scarer than that. period.

and i apologise if what i've said is nasty again. but that's the truth.