Thank you Wei Li for being there for me at such late hours. Thank you for all the advice and help. Sorry to have caused you any trouble. Love you best best.

Thank you Labin for replying my msg only after I've calmed down. Haha. Yeah like you said. It's not everything. I still have goody good pals like you guys.

Thank you Mel for being there to hear me rant a little.

Sorry Michelle. I didn't know something was wrong at your side too. Sorry for disturbing.

I know you'll ask me to hold on
And carry on like nothing's wrong
But there is no more time for lies
Cause I see sunset in your eyes

Hello all. Today's the birthday of that pretty girl in the above picture. 18 and legal like finally. Muahahahha.


Due to some reasons I thought I wont be able to celebrate my birthday with the mateys but being the sweet darlings they are known to be, I got a big big surprise. And Labin, I really wasnt expecting it lor. And if I'm not wrong it was the boys who planned it?

Anyhow, thank all of you in W45L so so so so so much. You guys have been a wonderful bunch and I supposed you guys are the reason why I go to school for. Me love all of you deep deep.

Wei Li - Thank you for everything that you have done for me ever since the day we started be good pals. Thank you for always being there to hear me rant and likewise you can count on me that I'll be there for you when you need an listening. Love love. =)

Michelle - Babe, you've been oh-so-sweet all these while. Always there for me to count on and texting me those lovely caring msges at night when you know that I am feeling down. I' m really really glad to have you in this class for I will never get bored with you and Labin by my side. Love you many many.

Labin - My dearest Abu, though you look like a monkey but you're still my best friend. And dont worry I will continue to be your non stop remix MP3 till the day that either on of us dies. It's been really nice to know a friend like you who can stand my irritating-ness. Me love you big big. =D

Li Jie, Valencia, Vivian, Nat, Mei Yang, Pei Rong - You babes have been wonderful too. If the class is short of any of you girls it'll be totally boring, especially Val. I wish that you'll stay stupid and dumb forever to let us pick on you. You are like that live wire of W45L, without I think the class would be so so boring.

Jun Yang, Jing Hao, Ben - You boys do add lots of colours to the class too though I'm not that very close to you three but you guys really did light up everyday of my life. Ben, when I said I hate you I didnt really mean it but can we just stick the bully target to Valencia and not me, please pretty please and dont ask the anuties their that one how big ready not very nice ah.

Zuzu, Shamira, Jane, Sabz, Azlan, Chia Hsien, BZ - Though I'm not very close to any of you but I really enjoy having you people in W45L too. Big big hugs.

Doing this post at such hour is really difficult for me as I'm like half drunk and brain dead so do forgive me if I left out any names. Me just love everyone and anyone in W45L la.




Felicia - Baby girl, I think everything that I wanna say is already written down on the post dedicated just for you. Still, I wanna thank you for the blessings and trust me that I'll be there for you anytime of the day. Me is just a phone call away. Love you long time.

Iris - Hey, sweety. Can you stop skipping school? We're seeing very little of you nowadays. Missing the time when we were together. Thank you for being part of my life. Love love you.

Li Sze - Eh you stupid girl. Stop skipping school also leh. Iris come, you never come. You come, Iris never come. Fun ah? Anyways, babe stay strong always and yes me will always be here for you la. Love love you.

Melany & Jak - This 6 years of knowing you two have been awesome and no words can describe how much I appreciate and love the both of you. Though I am seeing very very very little of both of you but everytime we meet up it seems like we still have never ending topics to talk about. Me is missing the schooling days where we used to have recess in your class bring our own home food thinking that it'll save us money and hanging out at Holland and Queensway like every single day and also big drums and lion dance events which let us make easy money. Muahahaha. Loving you two long long time.

Li Ying - Darling, me love you many many. Thank you for always being such a sweety. We gotta meet up soon. Missing you like crazy. =))

Jian Qing - Dude, can we like meet up soon? The last time I saw you was like in July can. Me is missing our T.C.C and Bingo. =((

Khai - Eh, stop being a copycat leh. And haha, someone not legal. Though I've not known you for every long but you have been a really great friend. =))

Desmond - Thank you for the birthday present. =) Though I've not known you for very long too but thank you for everything you have done. Much appreciated =D

Tu-ness - You can be such a sweet heart at times but most of the time you're such a fucking shithead nonetheless, I love you many many many many many many many. =D

My dearest brother, Sanjay - Though you can be a total asshole at times but I still wanna thank you for being sucha nice elder brother. If I can choose, in my next life I still wanna be your little sister. Love you truckloads. =DD




My birthday wish - May everyone I know in this 18 years of my life be able to be happy in everyday of their lives. =D

That little something that never seem to happen.



Classing was depressing for me. Math, VB - not my thing at all.

Lunch was great. Tze char. Thanks Desmond for the treat. Marriott next. =D

Dinner-ed with Labin, Michelle and Li Jie when I totally let all out by acting like a crazy bitch. Sorry Labin if I was too irritating but I know you love me because we are friends. =D Shopped around CWP and I've gotten new additions to my wrist. Was a happy girl for an instant and became depressed not too long after. Made Labin to train back with me as I really dont wanna be alone. Thank you for standing all my nonsense but I know you dont mind me being your MP3 because we are friends. =)


Fuck. Four more days to my 18th and am not even excited about it. Not even looking forward to it as there is nothing to be happy about this birthday at all. Fuck.

Happy Happy Birthday To Shen Jian Qing. See me so nice. Still remember your birthday. I miss T.C.C!! Meet up soon. ^^

It's so stupid when you tell someone you wanna take a picture with him when you dont have a camera.

Yes, it happened just ytd.

Our 'cute' little Abu Labin was all dolled up like a little puppet. I told him that I wanna take a photo with him later when we're both free and when he came to me to take a photo, none of us had a camera. Well, I did bring my camera out but it was in my bag and my bag was locked in CAP room!! So in the end I didnt manage to take a picture with Abu Labin =(

It was a Saturday yesterday and I had to head back to school at 8.30 in the friggin morning to help out for Artistic Tapestry. Cab home with Qi Zhen after the whole show ended as I was dead tired.




I'm not a puppet, a toy, a fool nor a child. We're all old enough so stop being the immature one.

Fuck Shit!

I never thought that I'll be saying this since I'm in Poly now but I just fucking hate school.

School's the most irritating place I've ever been to. I've always looked forward to heading to school in the mornings but recently I really dread going to school.

2 more months. Just 2 more months and I hope the new year will turn out a whole lot better.

Fuck UTs, Fuck RP.


Lunch was fab totally. I didnt know the Indonesian Food at the W4 canteen was so good. Today I've finally tried their Ayam Bakar and it's so form that I dont mind having it for all my meals. Muahahaha.

Got fucking pissed early in the morning thanks to some lil bitches for having to be such a bitch early in the fucking morning. Got even more pissed the later part of the day thanks to Math. Left in the middle of meeting 3 even without presenting. I'm very sure if I didnt leave I'll totally snap. Headed to collect my phone from Samsung and now it's in perfect condition to be sold. Home after which.



Sometimes it's better to mind your own business. It'll do you good. Trust me. =D

Weekends are awesome.

Woke up at an unearthly hour of 7.30am yesterday due to a growling stomach. Well, I didn't have dinner the previous night. Very much wanted to force myself to sleep but the hunger was killing so got up and went to get breakfast.

Hit town later in the afternoon to get my bag. Now I'm a happy girl. My birthday present from myself =D. Dinner at Billy Bombers. It's been awhile since I last dined there. Portion of the food are still as huge as usual.

Walked from Cathay to Raffles Place after dinner. We needed that walk badly. Haha.

As I was wearing my new sneakers which I bought recently, my toes were hurting so bad from all the walking. Need to season my shoes so no choice but I have to wear it quite frequently.

Dammit! I spent $200 in just one week! I must be mad. There goes my ang bao money. =(

And I'm only left with $300 to get a new phone unless I wait till next month. Pondering over LG KS360 and Sony Ecrisson Xperia. BAHHHHH. I NEED MONEY!

A few days back Fel said : Shivv, do something for yourself.

I tried my best but it didn't work.

Here's what I'm gonna do for myself now.

To put myself out of misery and smack myself back to reality.

Yes, that's just what I'm gonna do.

I'm gonna put an end to everything tonight.

Be it a good or bad outcome.

It's just too much. Too much for me to handle.

I'm tired. Really tired. The tears have run dry.

Good luck to me.


My classmates are so irritating. Fining me for spouting vulgarities. TMD.
But they just always make my day. Love love you guys. =)

First day of school and it was awesome. Classmates totally made my day and made me took off the load on my mind. Opening show for reflection was fabulous. Great job done to all who have put in their efforts to it. Rosalyn Lee was one of the emcee was on of the emcee for the show. And she's god damn pretty and and she's really tall too. Slighty shorter than me only.

Too many issues to blog about that I have no idea where to start.

From a certain asshole > school > class to opening showing > Rozz > my shoe with tape as it was tearing apart > Fel had to get me slippers > IDK what else.







From the Dictionary

Fate - that which is inevitably predetermined; destiny

Life - the animate existence or period of animate existence of an individual

From my very own interpretation

Fate - Is what you create it to be.

Life - It's just a waste of time.



Well, I never believed in fate but I guess have to start believing in it as sometimes maybe it does exist.

As for life, it's a total waste of time. I mean you are born to mother earth, you go through some obstacles as you grow older and when your time is up, you die. Why the hell is human beings created for when all they go through is torment of all sort and in the end, we end up as a pot of ashes. Life is bullshit!