It's weird not being able to share your everyday's with someone. What upset you, what angered you and what silly little things you and your friends did that made you laugh real hard.

It's saddening to not be able to feel special to a certain someone, to not feel loved, wanted and needed.

The feeling of waking up to a brand new day feeling as if your life have been shortened by another two years because of how you've been living.

The feeling of knowing that people who cares for you are worried and is trying their bestest to get you back up on your feet but they have no idea how else they can help you.

The feeling of people close to you telling you how you've changed and knowing that they no longer like having you around.

The feeling of knowing that yourself isn't being the person you used to be.

The feeling of fear. Fear of losing any more people who are dear to you.

The feeling of pain and sorrow that died deep inside that you wished you can inflict it to physical pain.

It sucks, big time.


Everyone's telling me that time will take it all away. But no one understands that not knowing where the future takes me, time is something I can no longer offer.